From the underworld, reborn

Late Night Musings

2009-04-20T02:58:56Z

It's been an incredibly long while since I've posted. I'd like to do it justice, but it's late for me right now and I need to get to sleep soon.

I've been very busy at work since getting back from post-deployment leave, what with training my replacement as company clerk and getting into my new role as training NCO. But enough about work.

Fun things....

Video games - finishing up Lego Batman for PS3. Hilarity abounds, and the game mechanics are really good. An excellent game for a collector-type like me, someone who is bound and determined to find everything in a game. Also just started Last Remnant for 360. Haven't gotten too far into it yet, but it's got potential.

Movies - Saw Dragonball Evolution last week. Not all that impressive, I'm sorry to say. I wasn't expecting a whole lot, but it could've been cooler than it was.

Rented Twilight and Yes Man this weekend. Not sure what all the hype about Twilight was. I was not impressed. Yes Man, on the other hand, was hilarious, but not stupid hilarious (which is never a good thing in my opinion). Definitely recommend checking that one out if you haven't already.

Music - Finally got my hands on copies of Pretty Odd (Panic at the Disco) and Fall Out Boy's second album (the title escapes me at the moment. Fall Out Boy first - outside of the two songs I knew - This Ain't a Scene and Thanks for the Memories (or whichever vowels they decided to leave out), I don't especially like it all that much. Pretty Odd, however, was delightfully perky and strangely different from Panic at the Disco's first album (then Panic! at the Disco). Different, but still good. Weirder still, the whole album gives me a Sergeant Pepper's nostalgia. The mood, the instrumentation, even some of the styles, which are quite diverse. And to think I only picked up that album because Nine in the Afternoon was on Rockband 2....

That's all the news that's fit to print right now. More on me later....

Wary Christmas everyone

2008-12-26T17:05:57Z

I know I haven't posted much lately, but I hope everyone had a great Christmas. Wishing terribly that I was there, but it just can't be helped.

Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that we're...well, let's just say we'll be going on a camping trip. As such, I will be away from computer facilities for some time. So don't worry.

And that's all I have to say about that....

ho hum

2008-12-16T22:16:29Z

Well, this will be my last for awhile. How long? Who knows.... Why? I cannot say....

At any rate, I request that everyone stop sending me mail. I don't know if we're even going to be getting anymore before we return. And emails...probably won't be able to respond to those for awhile either.

Another Planet

2008-12-11T22:13:34Z

Same bullshit, new place. And that's all I'll say about that.

Anyway, thank Allah for Naruto Shippuuden, Bleach, and Ospreys. I bought a laptop this past week (my first) and it's awesome. Especially since the next day I got some Naruto discs in the mail, so I had something to watch them on. Thanks!

I've also been slowly but surely catching up on Bleach on a colleague's computer. Just about to episode 100 I think.

And Ospreys are bad ass. I'd recommend flying one...you know, if it were an option for just anybody. So fast....

Currently reading "The Historian." Good so far. Perhaps a bit morbid for the season? *shrugs*

Fidelius

2008-11-14T22:28:54Z

Wonder of wonders, is there anyone I can trust out there with my deep dark secrets?

The Devil comes again

2008-11-12T22:02:53Z

Not a whole lot to report out here. Not anything all that interesting anyway. I think there's going to be a lot of fun things to do when we get back though.

I checked into progress on the news of Diablo 3 again last night and noticed that they finally had new information on another character class. I think I'm in love. Well, not really, of course. The newest class, Wizard, looks pretty badass. The trailer shows some awesome techniques and the demo avatar model isn't too bad looking either. For a video game character, obviously.

I can't wait to see what the other two classes have in store. And I definitely can't wait for the game to be released. Whenever that will be....

devimustang0929 @ 2008-11-10T23:15:00

2008-11-10T20:15:50Z

Happy Birthday, Marine Corps!

Shinigami

2008-10-29T21:25:32Z

Last night I finally acquired a DVD player to watch my newest acquisition (surprising since I wouldn't have expected to find it on a mobile px): the live action movie Deathnote. I have not yet seen the anime series of the same name, but I doubt the movie was as in depth. *shrugs* Not that that's a problem, of course. I still want to see the series, but I thoroughly enjoyed the movie. The characters (well, most of them anyway) were convincing and the (limited) CGI looked pretty cool. That being Ryuk, the shinigami of course. The only...strange(?!?!) part of the movie was the ending theme song - Dani California by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. A Japanese film based on a manga...with an American Alternative/Rock theme song? Wtf?!?! *shakes head* Really doesn't fit. Other than that, though, I liked it. Especially since the end of the movie advertised its own sequel with already filmed scenes and plot points.

The movie also brings up interesting points full of merit for debate and conversation. Just what *is* justice? Who determines it? When is it too much? When is it not enough? And, again, who determines that? Life, of course, is anything but fair, but I'd like to believe in karma and all that. Is that a pragmatic view for the world we live in? No, probably not, but it gives some of us hope that our good deeds will actually serve some purpose. And gives others a rationale for not straying across the line of right and wrong or good and evil. But the ego is a very powerful sometimes monster to control and combat. And even the best of us doesn't always win that battle. It's what makes us human.

Anyway, my recommendation: a worthwhile view. And I can't wait to get my hands on the next one!

The trouble with the past

2008-10-28T19:31:08Z

is that it often intersects with the present.

I recently found out from a friend of mine the truth of an incident that occurred about four years ago, a few months before I joined the Marine Corps. I will not go into details here. It's pretty fucked up when you think about it. Not the incident itself, but the apparent motivation behind it and everything that happened afterward. Not to mention the fact that a lot of my "friends" knew about it back home and weren't disgusted by the whole affair. Or that I've been completely oblivious these last four years. I feel like a fool. Stupid for trusting too much in people, stupid for missing the signs, just plain stupid for continuing along like nothing ever happened, even though I have a few vague snippets but no idea of the magnitude and scope of the situation.

The worst part is that instead of being angry, right now I feel absolutely nothing. I need time to think on how I'm going to handle this situation. But this is the first step. I should be pissed. Who knows...maybe after I've thought about it some more, I might be. But I shall still take care and deliberation in handling it.

Water water everywhere

2008-10-25T11:39:03Z

Well, it did it again. Rained, I mean. And a bit more and a bit harder too. Enough so that there are puddles on the ground. And mud. And I don't think they're going anywhere anytime soon. The clouds still look scandalous, it's not especially warm, and the ground isn't all that conducive to water seeping into it very far.

I'm bored.

Zero Hour

2008-10-24T21:49:23Z

Okay, no actual crises in time here....

Today...tonight rather it rained. Not hard. Just fat slow drops. But it may as well have just been little bits of mud for all the dust hanging in the air. Fun fun. Luckily, didn't last too long.

And just for the record, a world without Star Trek would be a dark and miserable place indeed.

In other news, finished book 11 of the Wheel of Time series. Very good. But, I was right of course. I am now annoyed that the sequel is not immediately available and that I will have to wait probably at least a year for it. Reading now just doesn't seem the same without Aes Sedai and ta'veren and the Dragon Reborn to fill it up. PSP RPGs have been mostly letdowns so far, and I haven't had an anime fix in I don't know how long. I don't even have (personally) a medium on which to play the three movies I have here. Perhaps I should see about borrowing for that last bit....

Hmmm...ho hum....

supercool

2008-10-20T23:06:18Z

Strangely enough, for once I actually feel pretty good today. Never get all the things done that I want to get done, of course, but I'm used to that by now. Had a good run this afternoon/evening, all 63 minutes of it, nice a sweaty afterwards, followed by a (sadly short Navy) shower, and yummy pot roast for dinner. Mail has come to a bit of an impasse for me right now until I can get to a PX that actually sells envelopes. Got paper, just no envelopes. I suppose I could always construct some out of paper, but that might be a bit too crude.

Not much to report otherwise (not that there's a whole lot I *can* report about out here). Except, I miss anime and console rpgs. And I'm almost done with the currently published Wheel of Time series. That'll probably make me angry and sad since I'll have to wait for the last book to be finished. By a different author, no less.

Sigh...I hate waiting.

stupid game of tag

2008-09-30T01:11:39Z

I was tagged by lingostarr from across the room.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse (well I'm sure they can, but do you really want to be THAT person?).These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

(Honestly, I don't really care if anyone does or doesn't do this quiz.)

I tag megory, florelhime, spacealien_vamp, cadet426, cellogeek, dmreg03, kingalziel, and pacoese.

1. What are your nicknames?

Matt, Matty/Mattie, Matty-P, Lindioso, (in a past life) brotha matt

2. What do you do before bedtime?
collapse

3. What fandom(s) are you most into at the moment?
I have no time for such things.

4. What is your favorite scent?
Right now, anything but the port-a-johns.

5. What's your favorite game ever?
So many to choose from...pick a name from a hat...we'll say Chrono Trigger.

6. What book you are reading now?
Book 11 of the Wheel of Time series, Knife of Dreams

7. Do you trust easily?
Absolutely not

8. What was your first big fandom?
way back...I have no idea

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
just about everything to do with work...which is everything

10. What's your pet peeve?
hypocrisy

11. What's the silliest gift you've received recently?
a mini-Wolverine (the X-Man) plush doll

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Facebook, google mail, livejournal (nearly daily)

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
no one here

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
for another five months, alive

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
buckcherry - rescue me

16. What’s your least favorite item of clothing?
military issue boots

17. You get to spend the day with a fictional character. Who?
Matrim Cauthon

18. What turns you on (in the gender/s of your choice, baby, this is the 21st century)?
nice eyes, a nice smile, and a smooth and slender body

19. What would you like to achieve within the next 3 years?
not being in the military

20. What should you be doing right now.
sleeping

21. Pop? Jazz? Classic? Swing? Others?
Alternative, Classical, jpop, Rock, Classic Rock

Everything I expected...

2008-09-30T00:48:01Z

And so much less.

Never trust to hope, I suppose. A day full of miscreants, wasted hours, another late night (I *am* still awake, after all), selfish whiny bitches (no, I don't feel like watching my language), ungrateful attitudes, inconsiderate and rude behavior, my frequent open mouth-insert foot disease, and no time whatsoever to myself.

Happy fucking birthday me.

At least it's tomorrow now. Wake me up sometime next year.

Sore till it hurts

2008-09-22T00:33:29Z

Well, actually I feel pretty good despite the soreness. Just got done with today's workout, although sleep is looking pretty good. Trying to get a phone call in to my bro, since all I got was voice mail yesterday.

Yeah.

Thought I had something else clever to post.

Guess not.

Slumbering fancies

2008-09-20T22:46:32Z

I don't think it's affected my attitude much this waking period, but I was certainly aggravated this morning. I normally at least remember having dreams, if I don't remember what they were about. Since deploying, I don't think I even remember having any dreams. This morning, however, I know I was starting to have one.

Until my inconsiderate pricks of roommates woke me up. I have literally no idea where it was going, but it had potential just because I recognized one of the people in it. Someone I haven't seen in a very long time.

I cannot even begin to describe how much I hate living in one room with five other people who have no regard for the fact that we all don't operate on the same schedules.

In other news, today is my brother's birthday. At least, it is in back in the states right now. Here it's already tomorrow. Aaaaaand....waiting for one of the four phones to open up so I can call and wish him a happy 27th.

And now that it is the 21st here at least, I can wish Ethan a happy birthday as well.

Ars Draconis

2008-09-19T18:12:58Z

I really have nothing interesting to report at this time.

I just felt like putting it here that lately I've had a strange craving to play Dragon Quest VIII again.

facebook

2008-09-13T00:09:50Z

Well, there. I did it. Gone and ruined it. Ruined my boycott on fad internet sites. Unless this is one...wait, is it?

At any rate, I opened a facebook account yesterday, and a mere 30 hours later have more than 40 friends. Never underestimate the power of the internet, I guess.

On the plus side, I now have a way to contact people I haven't seen or talked to in a ridiculously long time.

devimustang0929 @ 2008-09-11T23:42:00

2008-09-11T20:47:25Z

Forget not the fallen.

Top of the World

2008-09-10T22:23:24Z

I haven't really felt like I've had much reason to post lately. It's all same-ol', same-ol' around here.

Had a sandstorm a couple days ago. Those are always fun. Second or third one I've seen since we've been here.

Anyway, my only real report is that I feel pretty good. Physically anyway. I've been working out pretty consistently for the past month, although I've only been adhering to an actual written out plan for a little over a week. It may just be my imagination, but I think it really is working. Like I said, I'm starting to feel pretty good, and I'm liking the progress I see in the mirror. Of course, it could just be all in my head. I still have a ways to go to get the specific results I'm looking for, and then there's the continual struggle with maintaining it. It's not like I'm getting any younger.

Muscle aches and sores are a good thing, right? Although that last leg workout left me sore for two-and-a-half days. It was certainly...fun trying to go up and down stairs.

Hmmm...my only other tast for the time being - my brother's birthday is coming up. I need to think on what to get him. This might take a bit of thought....

I'll let you know how it goes.

Vie Err Acme Ida Lupino

2008-09-04T22:44:34Z

I've been doing too many crossword puzzles lately. I think in the last three days I've completed almost 40. The really sad thing is that the writer must have had an incredibly limited vocabulary. It gets boring when I finish one puzzle, start another one, and immediately fill in some of the exact same words I just used.

Anyway, I *was* in a good mood yesterday. Mail call delivered two packages unto me, one from mom and another from college roomie Dave. More wet wipes and hygiene gear, plus the stuff I ordered for myself on Amazon: boxers, ipod armband, and headlamp. At least now I can exercise and listen to music at the same time. More important were the letters also contained inside said packages. It was good to see what Dave's up to and how he's getting ready for another whirlwind school year teaching English and such. Mom's note on the other hand gave me occasion for one of those "laugh out loud" fits. Yeah, you all know what I'm talking about. The middle paragraph referred to my brother and his wife's sister (I guess that would make her my sister-in-law's sister). Well, to make a long story short, my brother apparently found out that she might be interested in going out with me. Plans for six months from now? Hmmmm.... Well, like I said, I *was* in a good mood yesterday. Even got a decent workout that left my arms strained and sore.

Then today. Got up after only about five hours' sleep to word that I was going somewhere today. Got dressed, brushed my teeth, shaved, then came back to find out I wasn't going after all. Fair enough. So I did the only thing that came to mind: get undressed and go back to bed. Meaning to get up again in about an hour or two, I planned on making it to lunch. I mean, it was a fair bet, considering how much I get pestered by people about mail. But, for some reason, no one did, so I slept through lunch. Of course, fifteen minutes after lunch ended, then they swarmed in to bother me about mail. *&^(&%^$#$#@!

Whatever. You know what...I don't even feel like talking about the rest of the day. It's really stupid anyway and can all be summed up and attributed to the stupidity and sloth of others. It always tends to get me thinking of what exactly it is the hell I'm doing and how I ended up here.

Stupid, stupid impulse.

Gack.

Idle Distractions

2008-08-30T20:59:39Z

Well, I think I've found a new building addiction. Okay, maybe not an addiction, but certainly an all-engrossing way to pass time better spent being productive.

And its name is Rock Band. Our 1st Sgt loves hooking us up; his first purchases - PS3 with a bunch of games (including Rock Band and all its peripherals) and a one-eye projector. Believe or not though, I'm really not into the singing portion of Rock Band. My voice was just not made for the types of songs on the game. And I only fiddled around a little bit with the guitar today on Easy. That just leaves...that's right. Drums. *shrugs* Well, other people watching seem to think that I'm pretty good. Well, I'd say I'm consistent on Medium.

Still trying to focus on reading and writing too. Halfway done with book 9, almost done with FF1 on PSP too.

Hmmmm....and for whatever else I may have forgotten to post here - thhhhhbbbbpt!

Just because.

Future Imperfect

2008-08-28T22:41:31Z

They say that cleanliness is godliness. If that's the case, then my bid for immortality should be all set. I got two packages this evening, one from megory and company and another from Albion College D&HS (love those gals!). Suffice it to say, I won't be in need of wet wipes, hand sanitizer, or kleenex for quite a while. Thanks all!

Still waiting for the package of stuff I ordered and had to send home because they wouldn't send it out here. Bah amazon.com vendors!

But seriously, I think it's time for another one of those serious veins of conversation. Well, monologue perhaps. I've been looking around lately and thinking. I may joke often about my supposed immortality, but I do feel the weight of time pressing upon me greatly. I am conflicted, to say the least, mostly because I have so much I want to do. But those things may cut me off from getting what I want and need ultimately. And that thing would be a family of my own. I see others around me, married and/or with children, and I feel like I'm missing out. This, to me, looks like the true path to happiness and love.

I feel like I've wasted so much of my life already doing the reckless things that people do in their youth, and I have no one to blame but myself. I feel so alone, and the prospect of that continuing scares the hell out of me. There's my big secret confession: I'm not scared of being alone; I'm terrified of ending up that way. And I don't know what to do about it.

And that concludes my moment of navel contemplation.

But seriously, this does matter a great deal to me. I think that's where most of my feelings of helplessness and depression come from. Not that I feel that way a lot mind you...wouldn't want anyone to think I was clinical or anything...heh heh heh....

Um...yeah.

Buggery

2008-08-25T22:42:53Z

I have a headache all of a sudden. My stomache is growling at me to put something into it. And I apparently need to go to sleep soon just because I may or may not need to get up and do something tomorrow. I mean today.

Ornery and still a little bored. So in answer to today's writer's block, love means a lot to me. However, I don't feel that I really even know what it means. I don't think I've ever really felt it, either directed at me or directed at someone else from me. I feel corny saying this, but I can't help but want to sing a little Foreigner ("I Want to Know What Love Is"). Or some other such drivel. I'd say that I'm a headcase, but you all should already know that by now.

Good lord...six more months of this. Irritability levels rising....

the relief of sleeping in

2008-08-23T22:04:24Z

Definitely feel much better today. Although, I did sleep right through lunch. Dinner was excellent though: a delicious beef pot roast with mashed potatoes and gravy. Exquisite. Especially for military-prepared chow.

Today was mostly uneventful. Except for the whiners who want to clamor for their mail and screw everything else that needs to get done first. Did I mention that I'm in charge of the company's mail? Note to self: don't forget the important details.

Anyway, after the tiring trials of the last two days, I've kinda gotten off my exercise regimen. So I need to get right back into it this evening. The moon's waning is going to make running impossible until I get my headlamp in the mail, which should be here soon. Until then, I guess if I want to get my fat-busting cardio on, I'll have to settle for the crew machine.